Wednesday, July 15, 2009

nothing like a good cleansing cry

Anyone that really knows me, knows I am not a bit inhibited to cry. I cry when I'm happy, I cry when I'm sad, I cry when I'm frustrated or mad. Pretty much any reason that comes along can induce tears from me. I own it, I stop trying to fight it years ago, I now I welcome the cleansing feeling that a good cry brings.


Wayne has no idea how good it feels. Because of course, I've only seen him cry three times. He doesn't know what he's missing.

I really wish I had a beautiful cry. I would love to look like Liv Tyler in "Armageddon" when she talks to her dad just before he goes into orbit and is frozen in minus 100 degrees. Remember? A solitary tear streams down her face? Instead, I sound like a seal. Yeah, that's right a barking seal. When I talk and cry you can barely make out the words, and they all have that sharp high pitched ring to them. I used to think that I probably sounded elegant. Maybe like Julia Roberts. Wayne crashed that image when he lovingly advised me just before I walked on stage at church to share a heart felt testimony. " Hey don't try to talk and cry, you sound like a seal."
OK thanks babe.

I really don't care what I look like or sound like, because I know what it feels like. I carried tears around behind my eyes all day. They had been trying to fall since I woke up. You know, no reason or every reason? My friend Heather called me tonight, and 5 seconds into the conversation, it felt like a pretty good time to let it go. Ahhh, nothing like a good cathartic cry. The best part is, she totally gets it, and I didn't even have to explain. She never said " Steph, I can't understand what you are saying, you sound like a seal." No, she just let me cry and when I was done I never felt like I had to explain or apologize. I have several good friends who I can cry with. I hope you do to. It's good for you!

5 comments:

Roxanne said...

Only you can make me laugh over crying. I love that you cry. Then I feel free to cry!

Megan said...

I know just what you mean. I am not as quick to cry but man is it ugly when I do. Must be in the air lately though cause I have had cries like that twice this week!~ About pretty much nothin' Strange

Liquidspider said...

Wayne crashed that image when he lovingly advised me just before I walked on stage at church to share a heart felt testimony. " Hey don't try to talk and cry, you sound like a seal."
I love Wayne

Angel said...

Today was my crying day. I think it will even last through tomorrow. I am not one who usually cries but I can't stop! My poor brother! He has to listen to me, But I have to let it OUT!!!

Hollie said...

i have an ugly, messy cry too. It leaves me little red dots in the corners of my eyes. Funny that you write this tonight...because I am still sniffling from crying a little while ago! And I agree...there is nothing like a good cleansing cry! Love you!

 
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